Half Way Point

Today I am 29w2d pregnant. I have been in the hospital for 33 days and I have 33 days until my c-section.

As much as I want it to be over, less than five weeks until the baby arrives seems SOOOOO soon. It's like time is moving so slow, yet it's moving at light speed at the same time.
The last two days I have been leaking like crazy! I took ambien the last two nights in a row, and I've been leaking so much that I started wondering if I was peeing on myself in my sleep. But I think I'd be able to smell the difference. I've also noticed an increase in Braxton Hicks contractions. I don't think they are real contractions though because they aren't starting from my back, but they seem to last for quite some time. About two weeks ago I posted that I thought something would happen during week 29, so I guess we will have to wait the week out and see what happens.

So I just ate a third of a cake. Totally regretting that now. I have gas pains in the back on my rib cage (at least I'm assuming they're gas pains). It was delicious, I can't deny it. I'm trying to enjoy my sweets now. Before I knew I was pregnant I was on a horribly strict diet. I lost about 15lbs between January and May on my diet. Obviously had I known I was pregnant I wouldn't have been dieting, but it makes me wonder if I lost 15lbs while pregnant, how much would I have lost if I wasn't pregnant? In fact, I was getting so fit that I honestly thought I'd be able to wear a bikini this summer.... even with a 4 month baby bump that I didn't know was a bump. So yes, a strict diet once this baby arrives that excludes sugar, most carbs, red meat, liquor, and involves exercise and breast pumping. I've gained 25lbs so far (and hopefully won't gain anything else over the next five weeks) and I'm hoping to take it off in record time. I have a friend who looks better now after having a second child then she has the entire time I've ever known her, so I totally have faith I can do it. Until then, I'm enjoying my first love, chocolate.

Ted's parents came to visit me today. I don't know them all that well so visiting them is SO freaking awkward. I am a shy person until you get to know me. Normally I can do well if I'm around someone who's naturally talkative, but Ted's mom is also very shy and quiet like me so it's almost impossible to find something to talk about when she's around. Then Ted's dad is very loud and is the type that everything he says is fact... like I'm totally terrified to disagree with anything he has to say. It's funny cuz he's like "Ted doesn't buy Christmas or birthday presents." Just because YOU didn't celebrate holidays when your children were young, doesn't mean Ted won't. I didn't even want to tell him that he had bought Triston a christmas present.... Plus the first thing he asked when they came was "Are you and Ted getting married?" Like way to put pressure on me. Then instead of suggesting they would be leaving soon and lingering for a few minutes it was like "Well, ready to leave?" and like got up and practically walked out of the room. Soooooo awkward! The ONLY thing I miss about my ex's family is that they were always so easy to talk to. But an alcoholic is always going to be easy to talk to lol.

Anyway that's my boring update for now. Nothing new to report.