At school

I'm at school, second week of the semester. This semester is part time, in the fall I'll resume full time classes and let's pray that I will be able to manage. I am managing as of right now, but I have not encountered a lot of work yet. The only thing irritating me is that I feel like the lectures arent going where they need to go because these "students" ask questions after every piece of information is given.

Last time I posted I was having trouble with Triston. His tantrums, and the fact that I was getting angry with him more than should have been. I truly love Triston, he is just the type of child who is going to require a lot of attention. It's funny because I can see how different he and Marino will be from each other. Triston was a demanding baby who always had to be played with. Marino is just content with whatever, unless he's hungry or tired he'll just watch you or play with his toys. He's starting to get where he doesn't want to be left alone, but he's so much more easy-going than Triston.

I'm handling Triston better. He's not throwing as many tantrums and when he does I'm responding to them in a more positive and constructive way. He does not seem to be as jealous of Marino anymore. I feel as though the stem of the problem is my stress. Sometimes it seems as though I will never have enough time to do everything I both need and want to accomplish. It's like I need to clean, do homework, feeding babies, feed myself, bathe kids, bathe myself, take a nap, go to the gym, get my hair done, go shopping, pay bills, go to class, go to work... Something always ends up getting left out and normally it's things pertaining to myself. I only get to shower when Ted's around... I want to get my hair done next week and I don't know when I'll be able to do it... My mental health gets negatively affected because I feel like my needs are getting neglected while everyone else is getting taken care of.

Hopefully, some of that will change. I have a very busy week ahead of me but I'm hoping I can make Thursday a mental health day. I know that I don't work and that in the afternoon I can ship the children off to their grandparents. In the morning I'm gonna make Ted get up with them so I can sleep in. Then I'm gonna go get my hair cut. I'll come home and deliver the boys to their designated locations. From there I'm hoping ted and I can go grab a bite to eat, spend a romantic moment or two together, and then I plan to get rid of him too so I can take a nice bath, watch my shows and have the evening to myself, along with my bed.

Marino is doing quite well. He smiles constantly. He is going for a CT scan wednesday. Our follow up appointment with the craniofacial plastic surgeon went well. He seemed to think none of his sutures were prematurely fused and that he would be a good candidate for a helmet. However we sent us to another dr for a second opinion and this doctor stated that having more prominence in one side of his forehead is normally only caused by a premature closure and said having a CT scan would be best. Looking at Marino from the front he doesn't have any cosmetic defects, but if you look at him from the top of his head you do notice that one side of the forehead sticks out more than the other, and that the one side of his face is flatter than the other.

Finally the day has come where I left Arby's and I now have a new job. It came at the perfect time. Arby's was becoming a soap opera of gossip and I was getting sucked into being part of the rumor mill, which I didn't want to be a part of. I've been at the new job a week and I'm fitting in well, and I'm happy and I'm determined not to share too much personal information about myself and not speak negatively about others. I want to develop a professional and good reputation even though this is a place I only plan to stay with for about 2 years.

I've been maintaining my weight well, but my eating habits have been quite shabby. I'm wearing my body magic currently and after7 hours it's becoming quite uncomfortable. Ugh

Anyway I always set goals for this blog. Now that I actually have an hour in between classes every week I'm going to try to post once a week. I have many social work ideas I want to share and maybe I will develop this blog into a connection place to get these ideas underway.